Am I really “the problem”?

When you a brought up disabled in some way , you often feel YOU are the problem. ether because you have not “over come your disorder/condition/thinking ” or sadly a issue with your disability comes up and you are blamed for “inconveniencing people” or “your the problem not the staff/public/building” and so on

Often I think back to how people treated me and sadly treat me worse since my tics from my Tourette’s became worse. I think people with disability have what could be called professional victim blaming, you go to your doctors, they blame your “disorder/condition” and everyone follows the party line by the doctor:your broken so therefore you need to be fixed or else! A great book on this is the medicalization of society, were more human behaviours and commonance conditions the for profit ” health care” system selling treatments.

That or else always haunted me from childhood , values of not taking responsibility for mistreating disabled people badly , if they had more self control or overcame it we would both be happy right?
This narrative was the backbone of schooling issues and society at large. Many not accepting responsibility themselves saying I was “acting out” due to said disabilities a cop out. why would i have to change when they could change to make my life better to? why laziness?

the fact that people blame me for things going wrong , defend it and even are what i call ableist apologetics is an issue.
the fact is no one would blame a black person or a LGBT person that there discrimination or issues are ALL on them? yes a few outliers but most people understand said issues. so why should i have to deal with people saying its my fault and prove its not in this blame game culture.

I live to see the day when this is not an issue so am I the problem? I may have problems but I have nightmares at how I have been treated.

I’l will be writing more of this.

¡Venceremos Cuba!

The Latent Corresponder

There has been an explicit form of dishonesty of late when it comes to the discussion of third world ‘revolutions’ or ‘protest movements’ in general. This came prominently to light during the latest assault on the 60 year+ Cuban revolution which was rocked by protest from the Sunday July 11th protests. Fair to say that a very surface level analysis of the immediate concerns were immediately brought up by the international media who relayed concerns over power outages, food shortages and the lack of medicines in shops.

Demonstrating, protesting or rioting because of a lack of food is not a new age phenomenon, when the hardest hit communities are in economic distress tensions universally rise. However we have to contextualise each uprising by the analysis of the power brokers at play. This means that we must observe what/who is facilitating this revolt as multiple actors that have vested interests are…

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The Problem with “Mental Age”

Speaking of Autism...

One unfortunate way that you’ll often see people with developmental disabilities, including autistic people, described is with the concept of mental age. “Oh, they’re a ten year old in the body of a twenty-one year old.” “My daughter’s eleven, but functions as a six year old.” “My cousin’s legally an adult but is mentally four.” This sort of language is used by both professionals and non-professionals alike, and sometimes these sorts of “mental age” assessments are used to make determinations about what sorts of accommodations a person needs or what they will be like to work or interact with.

The problem is that no matter who is using them, the entire idea of “mental age” is not a very accurate, or ultimately useful, way of describing autistic and other developmentally disabled people, not to mention the fact that it is ridiculously infantilizing and therefore promotes a lot of ableism directed…

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Private Mental Hospitals Increase as the Cygnet Autism Empire grows.



So what has six years of post Winterbourne initiatives, campaigns and the end of public NHS mental bed admissions achieved ?

The increase of private hospital inpatient admissions.

Yet, Winterbourne View was a private hospital.

‘Independent ‘psychiatrists in private hospitals, are apparently, being paid for second opinions to enable the discharge of autistic patients from public ATUs to the private hospitals where they are employed.

Some might call that poaching, and the psychiatrists, anything but independent.

Cygnet’s Headlines portray expansions, as improving autistic ‘services’;

New Autistic Disorder Service Opening Soon’– November 2017.

To ‘enhance the care pathway in specialist Autistic Spectrum Disorder (ASD) services available within the hospital. This new service will be funded by Clinical Commissioning Groups (CCGs).

The Springs Centre will support up to 14 men with a primary diagnosis of ASD and comorbid mental ill health difficulties and/or mild learning disabilities in a locked…

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This April, go #RedInstead for Autism Acceptance!

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Coming up on April 2nd is “World Autism Day,” couched in what some people have designated as “Autism Awareness Month.” Unfortunately, for many autistic people, April has become a month of anxiety due to the darker sides of the “awareness” that is often pushed. There will be “autism walks,” wear blue days at schools and workplaces, and ad campaigns calling for the public to fear autism. Autism will be demonized, blamed for the world’s problems, all while autistic people are called “burdens” and “missing.” Autistic people will be spoken over by parents and professionals who will more-often-than-not spread more misinformation and create further prejudice against autistic people.

All this will be done in the name of “awareness.”

This has been the story every April since the advent of the autism awareness movement in the early 00’s. And it is, at least I believe, one of the largest contributors to many…

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Disability in media part 1

Disability in TV and movie culture and of course books as hardly ever been properly dissected vs LGBT+ or race even sexism.

Frankenstein or   The Modern Prometheus
This book is raver a strange book of course made by a woman Mary Shelley

beast being “saved” by bell

The early cinema were making films like the black stork, and other eugenic films( IL get to that later in part two) often from early works Jekyll and Hyde , Frankenstein were the monster films start. In this series IL try and make connections to the  the threads that bind all these things together.

Part 1 monsters in fiction books

Monsters in fiction have always been for the most part male, lower class or a cursed middle or lower class person. From the wolf man to Frankenstein often with a monstrous figure but kind hearten and misunderstood ( see Frankenstein). The idea of class , respectability or even “ redeeming “ and converting the animal or monster to its “true form” will echo future ideas i will  discuss later of the cure culture of disability, and the advancing of the medical model. Namely the idea that a monster ( or disabled ,black eta) person can become socially acceptable as “normal” by society’s norms.

In beauty and the beast the beast is cursed his social standing ruined and of course his masculine royal beauty is destroyed and a fair maiden must love him and undo the spell to return him to his supposed real form. Much can be said of both the Disney version and the book. Indeed the internalized hopelessness mirrors many who acquire a disability or have a late onset, not born with it from the get go. Bell is like the mother figure to beast , it’s ironic his name is never really mentioned. As if he is unworthy of a name ( like Frankenstein’s monster ). And the idea of the curse not defining him. Being attacked by humans in the village. Also poor Maurice belle’s father is an inventor and eccentric who Gaston plans to put in a madhouse to get him out of the way. Social deviation is not allowed. This and our present societies are extremely totalitarian in its acceptance of people breaking inadvisable rules. He invents things. He’s not respected and like beast because of his eccentric demeanour that many fail to see past or even accept so he’s in his lab a lot both in the book and film.

Maurice could be autistic or otherwise neuro-diverse and may lack social skills, and the beast can be seen as racial and body purity.belle both her father and the beast need her input and to protect and even translate the world and reasons to them. We also have to ask why beast staying like that but still loved by both belle and her father and not transforming back to a human. What does that say of societies goals and what it deems good?

Much has indeed been said about the the monster but little on how it mirrors or indeed reflects ideas on human life and in this case disability. For one the monster never in fact names himself , or indeed his wife. The idea of a scientist making a monster with intense humanity is one that still resonates of course  it was made at the beginning of the industrial revolution and the tail end of the enlightenment. He is of course disfigured in a way people dislike and is punished for a thing he can not help when he tries to interact with the people of the village. Also the idea of making a wife because no one would love him as the “monster” he is. I would say the real monsters were the peasant mob who try and kill him because of said appearance raver than any hostility the monster has. He is well read and very compassionate , but as the rejection of society he starts getting sociopathic and rejecting his form , place in the world and escapes to a remote place away from man were , he meets a man on a boat and he is very bitter and reacts poorly as he’s always known pain from mankind.
Note how the society or village never take responsibility of their actions and place it on the monster as a form of  projection, kill the monster and retain the status quo. The misunderstood monster will allegory in the future will become a trope of future disability media and template.

in conclusion this is a thread of disability of disfigurement seen as a short hand for mortality, Disfigured by Amanda Leduc goes into the tropes of disability in the times these were made.
and the long history as use as a plot device.
also how these stories influence our view of disabled people to this day. how this legacy effects film, books and the limits of disability as something for the non-disabled to use without the persons wishes.

next time il be talking about the media and the pity objects disabled people are turned into and more tropes from mental health as a short hand of evil such as the joker.

Till then stay strong and safe out there ❤